real talk

Wow, I was really tired when I made that post last night.  Sometimes I write things and then wake up and feel like I was drunk when I wrote those things.

I realized that there is always something that must distract.  Now that he is out of my life (was he ever actually in it?) my mind has reverted.  I really don't like that.

OMG I just discovered the band Rainbow Kitten Surprise! What a great band name.
Anyways.

He may have not been real but I made up the rest and that's enough to know I shouldn't have.  Does that make sense?  I'm confusing, huh.
Although part of that whole ordeal makes me a little nauseous, I did learn/was reminded of some things.

Never settle for a guy who's so quick to like you for your physical appearance but looks no further for merit or intellect.  Find one who won't be with you unless you inspire a certain depth in him and is quick to tell you so.  And if he can't tell you that, he probably doesn't have enough balls to talk about anything else real and necessary and is probably a waste of time.  

Don't be with a guy who's quick to provide antidotes but doesn't show interest in yours.  He will never stop caring about himself for even a second to truly listen and know you.

Beware of psuedo-Christians.  Why do so many of them exist?  Look for a guy who is actually living a blameless life and spends a lot of time around people that encourage him in this way.  Be with a guy who only wants to date a girl rooted in Christ and with whom the subject comes natural and often.  I refuse to even be interested in a guy that I am constantly trying to find bits and pieces of God in and who I worry about when they are consistently out with the wrong kinds of people.  It's not my place to mentally micromanage and it's not right for them to be so carelessly proactive in seeking Biblical guidance.  I'm sick of there being so many guys like this.  I'm sick of trying to hold onto the good things while ignoring the bad.

And finally, if a guy doesn't pursue you properly, seriously don't waste your time.  It's not going to change over time.